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im just a silly girl who still gets angry at silly things that shouldnt matter anymore. i find it in my nature to be jealous. trust is not in my vocabulary.
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[31 Jul 2006|04:22pm] |
i miss having a real centipede. it has been so long since i've had a centipede that really acts like a centipede. why are centipedes so disappointing? why are they so fun? im going to find a new centipede one that is better than all the other centipedes and i promise to be just as good to this centipede(if not better) than to all my past centipedes. i hope this one wont run away. that always makes me sad. i miss you...things. and i will miss you. so many legs.
fan-fuckin-centipede-tastic
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[01 May 2006|11:16pm] |
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i want to be an artist
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[03 Apr 2006|12:06pm] |
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im really glad that everything is just so chummy for everyone. all i want to do is have fun this spring break but instead im busy busy busy with a whole lot of stressful,boring crap. i thought i was ready to grow up, but im not. i just want to play and do nothing. one day i will drive children on a bus...so yea you should look out for that.
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[25 Mar 2006|11:16am] |
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my nose is really stuffy. being sick is no fun, no sir..uh-ugh. my phone is ringing.........
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[17 Mar 2006|11:32pm] |
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sometimes its good to set yourself up for failure...and sometimes you just really deserve it.one last shot, but im guessing it missed too.
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[16 Mar 2006|08:32pm] |
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when the world gets turned upside down for petty reasons, its nice to know that pizza and pretending to close th box can make you happy. but now why does it feel like all my friends are strangers? im lonely in good company yet completely despondent to the opportunity at hand. im tired of waiting, tired of putting in the effort. im selfish, needy, overbearing, rude, seclusive, moody, and negative. and yet ladies and gentlemen i still pray every night that you'll love me, and hope that one day perfection wont seem so unobtainable.i feel too complicated to enjoy my own company. i miss feeling like a part of something important. the problem with liking everyone is finding that the commitment exceeds the opportunities for friendship. "What does it feel like to be the most beautiful girl in this room?"
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[21 Feb 2006|07:23pm] |
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the number ten seems nice today. i think it will do...yea it will do.
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| bears and birth control |
[01 Feb 2006|10:51pm] |
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i got a raise and it feels really really good. im super stoked for college me and my gurl are gonna tear up the scene. im way stoked for V-day, hope it doesnt disappoint-but i know it wont. planning on a disney trip during the spring. way stoked to change the image and chop off all the hair. i really need to start working out again and eating right. i lost 10 lbs and then gained like 55 back eeewww so fucking ridiculous. what can i say? i wanna look like all the beautiful people on E! im obsessed soooo what..........
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| something to remember myself by..... |
[31 Jan 2006|06:09pm] |
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it's good to be back. i cant believe how fast time has gone. as exciting as graduation is im a little nervous to leave home. its funny how i dont want to stay but hate to say goodbye. i think i have some good things going for me...one thing in particular but we wont get into details. i must say that it is so nice to be in love. in love with love is what im feeling. i have two of the best friends anyone could ask for. to hell with everyone else...okay so that was harsh but whatever.
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| everything will change |
[14 Feb 2005|10:04pm] |
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i'm happy just staring at the reflection of the sky in a puddle.
let me take your picture.
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| the fingerprints on your window |
[25 Jan 2005|02:53pm] |
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to him who looks slutty when handling lunchmeat......thank you mark!
i want you to touch me like you mean it.
we'll see where it goes from there.
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| you make me wanna lite a cigarette...<3 |
[22 Jan 2005|07:04pm] |
i've been really happy lately.
a genuine kind of happy that last longer than than the medicine.
its nice to feel okay.
everything is rite.
in fact i dont think ive every felt so rite in my life.
i can find a calm in everything it seems'
even the things that use to make me cry.
maybe im putting my heart on the line
but i really think its worth it.
getting it broken again might feel rite too.
im complete when pretending its love.
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| maybe it's getting better..... |
[18 Jan 2005|07:32pm] |
today im okay.
i met him in the office while i was waiting to be counselled.
he's kinda cute in a quirky way.
im not looking into it too much
or maybe i am
pretty soon im gonna have to figure out what to do.
im not looking foward to it.
i hope someone else can figure it out for me.
im all up for the unexpected.
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| i said it... |
[05 Jan 2005|08:48pm] |
and the pink lipstick has stained the yellow tile in the shower.
i had no idea it was so hard to clean.
its okay though because it looked good on me<3
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[14 Dec 2004|09:07pm] |
i become so twisted up inside and nothing matters anymore. everything ceases to hold my attention. hello goodbye its all the same. i'm bored with you.please start something new. please just end it. i hate it. i want out.i want nothing. blood is hard to clean off lineolium. you learn these things from expeirience.
fuck.
vee
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| passing the time with handguns <3 i love you i love you |
[22 Nov 2004|09:37pm] |
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its almost my birthday and all i want is a white cupcake with pink frosting and a teal candle. perhaps you can hand deliver it. perhaps it can arrive with a kiss. perhaps we could share it and we can laugh about how hard you tried to make it look perfect.
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| Glencocoa *CLAP CLAP* you GO! |
[17 Nov 2004|09:20pm] |
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life has been so boring. and there is nothing to say without sounding fake or overdone. but i guess i'll acomplish it anyways. i attend a school full of uglies. no kidding. i just walk around and everyone is so ugly. damn. ugly or fat. thats all there is . ewww. i need a hottie to save me.
please and thank you.
shut up and tell me you love me. hott pink nailpolish and a bottle of light beer. arn't you classy princess.
wait. i lied about the ugly people thing. im going to formal with the hottest hottie ever. its hott. hot. hott. hottt.
our picture is going to be sexy. people will be whackin' off to it all the time. i know its crazy. thats just how sexy it is.
i hate F.E.M.O kids.well i dont really hate you. but please spare us.
i know this guy who needs to be my prince charming. i just cant wait.
i have officially completed "pouring out my heart" *tear*
hahaha
kiss kiss
* i've got a dining room full of fine dine-brizzle
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| MiSSiNg SOMetHiNG.....<3 |
[27 Oct 2004|10:14pm] |
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this place is a prison and these people arent
your friends
inhaling thrills through $20 bills and the
tumblers are drained and then flooded again
and again
they're guards at the ramps armed to the
teeth
and you may case the grounds from the
cascades to puget sounds, but you are not
permitted to leave
i know theres a big world out there like the
one i saw on the screen
in my living room late last nite, it was
almost too bright to see
and i know that its not a party if it happens
every night
pretending theres glamour and candelabra
when you're drinking by candelight
what does it take to get a drink in this place?
what does it take, how long must i wait?
i wanna give until i cant give anymore. wasting my life on someone else.
i should have been famous.
as always ended with a.....
kiss kiss
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